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Im Fine Chin up Blink away the tears Stand up straight You can get through this Your strong Keep it inside and it'll all go away Nobody needs to know Just keep pretending and everything will be fine. And thats what she told herself again and again "Im fine." and thats all she ever said

I'm searching for faith In a world left for dead I'm crying for help In a world forever gone I'm hoping for a dream In a nightmare never-ending I'm clinging to my emotions But soon I will have non I'm dying I'm dying alive Death comes alive Death is a part of life But what if I'm already dead, inside

I swear I'm trying to hold on, But I know I'm losing the fight, I just want it all to be gone, I want that tonight. I can't keep this fake smile, Any longer upon my face, I'll let it slip for a while, I'll hide out in this place. Somewhere in-between death and life, Feel the cold spreading through, As for the final time I drop the knife. This time the rumours will be true. Of how she took her sorry life, Cut it short and disappeared, Escaped the trouble and the strife, She was more fucked up than we first feared. Now she is gone far away, Another name upon the list, The memories of her will soon stray, The fuck up girl will

I have never quite forgiven myself I have never felt like I deserve better I have never felt so depressed And I guess I have never felt love I have never had a smaller hope I have never had so much faith I have never cried so many times And I guess I have never felt so lost I have never ever been so thoughtful I have never in my dreams grinded so wide I have never lost my faith in you But I guess, that's why it hurts

I'm so tired of being here I'm trapped by all my fears I wish you could see me now Broken and crying for help My blood it flows And I don't want it to stop I'm so tired of being here I'm trapped by all my fears I wish I could heal myself Wipe all these tears away But my heart it bleeds And I don't know how to stop the blood I'm so sick of being hurt I'm trapped in my own mind I wish I could hear those songs But then I remember you And I now I cry again God why can't I be a man?

The darkness embraces me I'm getting cold The darkness inside of me It's so very old You have made it grow It has found its way You have made it show And it won't go away Those words they beat me I'm in pain For lies they feed me Its in vain I know the truth I'm the one to blame But my darkness within It won't go away I hope someone will cast a light On my shattered heart I hope someone will love This monster I'm Without light, there is no shadow Without good, there is no bad Without death ,we wouldn't be alive And without hate,  we wouldn't feel love

Sometimes I wish I was dead Sometimes I want to change the past Sometimes I regret And sometimes I'm hurt Sometimes I smile Sometimes I cry Sometimes I Hate And sometimes I'm emotional Sometimes I wish Sometimes I hope sometimes I dream And sometimes I crawl But in the end I'm still me And if you want to change that Then I got two words for you Fuck off

Another slice to the wrist. Another cigarette to the lips. Another cup of vodka to the stomach. Another broken heart. All of these feelings are captivated inside of me. I want to free them, but the key to the lock has been demolished. These feelings will never help me put together my last pieces. I wish to slit my wrists one last time. I want another smoke before I die. When I die, I want to be drunk. When I die, I don't want my heart to be broken. Addictions ARE my suicide.

I have a mask, but you can't see I have used it all day, even for my family They think they know, they think they see They hope they know the real me But they don't, and they won't see Because I'm too emotional, to be me I'm afraid to get hurt, afraid to open up I'm not a book, you can't open up They have told me, '' You're a great actor '' They don't know why, they don't know how I learned to act I'm an actor all day, and a wear a mask I can't get hurt, they can't touch me I let one in, I let her see I was told, that she loved me And we were happy, young and free Now she hates to even think about me After she left, my mask g

The bloody rain That's what it became Never ending It has never been here before Dead inside Dreaming of a hope Left behind Wondering alone No answers You will work Walk blindly And see what you will find Learn to watch And do not laugh Learn to listen And you will learn to speak